Thursday, June 18, 2015

4 kids and hundreds or pregnancy tests.

“I participated in a Influencer Activation on behalf of Influence Central for First Response. I received product samples as well as a promotional item to thank me for my participation.”

When you have 4 kids you become very familiar with pregnancy tests. You can see a faint pink line a mile away. I have always bought First Response to check with each of the boys pregnancies. Even if my cheaper brands read clear, I always retested with First Response pregnancy tests because they are over 99% accurate!
I honestly have a cupboard full of them for each month. I am that person who takes a test 5 days before a period is supposed to start just because. Taking tests has become second nature to us but I am honestly obsessed with First Responses early detection tests. I am that person who has to know the MINUTE I am pregnant! Jordan totally thinks I am insane at how many tests I take but it's just a ritual and something I have to do or else I will be anxious until the minute my period arrives. Jordan and I also use plenty of tests because we do not use birth control. I get asked a lot why that is and how it is even obtainable. We do not use birth control because of our faith first and foremost and I am honestly not a fan of birth control and added hormones, I have enough crazy hormones that I don't want to pay around with them! haha We have never actually "practiced" it to its full effect until after Sam, clearly 4 pregnancies and 1 miscarriage in 5 years proves we werent very accurate but now we honestly have it down to a science with Pink Pad tracking and paying close attention to other details (I will do a while post on NFP another time) but pregnancy tests are still a part of my every month routine because no matter how closely we follow our charts I am a very anxious person who has to take tests regardless a few days before a period is due just to clear my anxious heart! The best part is that their technology can detect up to 6 days before a missed period which means less anxiety for testing ladies! Their new design has them easier to handle as well with a curved shaped design to fit perfectly into a womans hand, there is also longer handle and a 50% wider tip to ensure you get the correct amount of urine for the test. So every month you will find me with a bright pink box in my cart because the tests are available at drugstores and grocery stores and easy to spot! The best part is that you also can test ANY time of the day so you dont have to worry if you missed your first or second bathroom break of the day, you can test ANY time! You can read more about their tests here 

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Insecurities...and Keeping it REAL!

I get comments on social media all the time thanking me for sharing REAL life vs just the pretty picture perfect version and I honestly spent years trying to pretend life was perfect. When I would snap a picture I would angle it so you couldn't see the messy kitchen sink full of dishes or the dirty clothes and shoes sprawled all over the floor. I didn't want people to start assuming that I was a slob or not a good housewife, so I would angle the kids just right to get the most picture perfect shot. 

That was the old me. Through the years of play dates and meet ups I have loosened up a tad. I have met other real women who arent afraid to share the real details of life and the truth that God forbid they dont have it all together. 

I cant tell you how REFRESHING it is to find other women who are open with the fact that life isnt perfect and that their kids also eat off the floor and that there is really NO 5 second rule, let's not kid ourselves, there have been days where Sam finds food from yesterday and downs it like it's filet mignon. I have the two of the most amazing friends that shockingly are both named Sarah and married to a Matt and have 4 kids....we all live on the same street weirdly enough. (Talk about friendship fate) but I feel at home in their homes. I dont feel like I am walking on egg shells when I am with them because they are so real and raw. When I told the one that her house was so clean so drug me upstairs to show me the bedroom and the piles of clothing and it made me LOVE her even more. 
We assume that everyone has picture perfect homes and their children are dressed to the nines each day. We assume that they have perfectly portion meals and their kids never spill their drinks on the floor. That their bathrooms are sparkly and clean. That their children never fight or hit eachother. That them and their spouse never EVER fight. That their children stop at the first "NO" and never push the limits. We assume that their house is a magical land of rainbows and butterflies with cleaning fairies and glitter. 

But lets be real. 

Some days my house is clean. But more times than not there is dog hair all over. Their is dirt everywhere. I steam the floors and within minutes the giant dog runs through with muddy paws. Our mud room which could be a beautiful picture perfect room with lined up shoes in their a legit MUD ROOM with dirt chunks all over and shoes covering the floor.  My kids want to wear only PAJAMAS. All day long. They even cry if they cant wear their PJ pants under their real jeans. Even when its 70 degrees out. Our dinner, while always at the table is far from conventional, most nights are side dish is just red peppers and broccoli (not steamed or cooked). Jude spills drinks at least every night of the week. I cannot tell you the amount of times the entire jar of honey or maple syrup has spilled. Our table is sticky almost daily and covered with glue and glitter. Our bathrooms no matter how many times I clean them still smell like urine. Sam never fails to PEE all over the floor the minute I take him out of the bathtub. We have numerous times out a day and sadly I raise my voice a LOT! I feel like a complete failure of a parent at least a few times a week, if not daily. The boys can be downright amazing or downright hellish. Just depends on the day :) Our house is complete and utter madness but it's our madness and I love it.

So please I beg you not to compare yourselves to others. Some just share the picture perfect pictures but that's not the real deal. We all have madness in our lives and our children make us want to drink a lot of vodka and slam our heads into walls. We all lose our cool and yell. We all say things that we regret. We won't always get along with our spouse and see eye to eye but it's OKAY!!! Life isnt about's about making the most of what YOU HAVE. Some days you might have it all figured out and go to bed feeling like a rockstar and the next day your baby rips his diaper off during naptime and spreads poop all over his crib and the other flushes a wash cloth down the toilet and floods the bathroom to where it is leaking through the 100 year old walls into the office below while your husband is out of town.

Enjoy the madness of life, you guys. 
We all have behind the scenes madness and that is why I love sharing ours with you. 

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Postpartum Hell {feels good to get this out there}

I finally made a video on my journey through post partum depression and anxiety. I talk a pretty good chunk about it to my close friends and family but decided that I needed to get it off my chest because it is a very heavy burden to carry along and I want to try to completely free myself from it. This wonderful situation is the sheer factor of why I am terrified to have more children. The fear of living that hell again is far too much for me to consider at the time being. Also there is not a lot of information out there because a lot of women do not want to talk about it which is why I felt that I needed to. 

This is nothing to be ashamed about. EVER. Your hormones are all out of whack and its such a hard transition as is, so this just creates a firestorm within you. Although I never ever want to feel this again,  the fact that I went through this and made it out stronger is a huge blessing. It has formed me into who I am today and I am a much better person than I was before. 
I pray this helps someone.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Time Management (from a trainwreck planner)

I won't lie...managing my time makes me want to stab my eyes out. I cannot tell you how many times I have tried to schedule my weeks and days with lists and sticky notes and NOTHING has ever worked. EVER. I finally found the most amazing way to manage my time. I am two weeks in and things are flowing so much better not only in house cleanliness but also in my marriage. DOUBLE WIN!!! Here is the video I made on time management and how I have been using Google Calendar!
What are your issues with managing your time? Have you tried this?

My favorite part is that it alerts me 30 mins before my next thing on the list so I can get it in my head and can start wrapping up whatever I am doing to prepare for the next thing on my list!!!

Thursday, April 23, 2015

From Blogging Mom of 1 to Work at home mom of 4 in 5 years!

A few years ago when I started blogging I finally stopped feeling alone. I started blogging honestly at first to have a place for our family to follow our lives without having to call everyone weekly. Soon I started finding other moms out there in the interwebs that were just like me and semi lost in the world of motherhood. As the years went on I stopped pretending that life was all rainbows and butterflies and loosened up a tad on what I blogged about. I started to share a real look into our lives and honestly I have pulled a tad back on blogging and started IGing the madness but I hope to come back to blogging in the coming months. Instead of blogging about how amazing my children were ( I mean hello child prodigies) I started shifting the focus to the real behind the scene things that was going on. My children wreaking havoc through our house (that Jude is special) and letting go of what I thought motherhood should and would be. Through the years I went from being an expert mom of 1 to a mom without answers of 4 little men. I have thrown in the towel on pretending to be perfect and have embraced the craziness of mom life. Instead of trying to be supermom I have decided to just rock out as a normal mom.  There are so many stigmas attached to motherhood and I hope through the months as I revamp this blog I can confront so many of those issues a lot of my friends and I also have felt the past few years. I still can rock out some crafts from pinterest and sometimes I bust out my fancy camera to document them. 

I have made so many amazing friends and have grown so much over these years JUST from blogging and surrounding myself with motivating people. I haven't chatted much about this on my blog because I have been so busy switching from mom mode to working at home mom mode this past year. A year ago I teamed up with one of my mom blog friends from years ago for a new job as a fitness coach. When I started I had 30 lbs to lose so I was far from a fitness expert so I did not expect much to happen. I started with a program called the 21 Day Fix and honestly just started for the sole purpose of getting myself back in shape. (The past 5 years contained 4 pregnancies, 1 miscarriage and a combined 200lbs gained) so I had a lot of work to do. Well I summed it up in this video because like I said videos are easier for me. But this past week I was sent on an all inclusive vacation with our company (that company I just started with a year ago...insane) and felt compelled to share a tad more of my story. 

I cry through this so please do not hold it against me. Hopefully my feelings on motherhood will help you work through your life as well. I love my children more than life itself so it was hard to finally get those words off my chest.

Here is a peek at the vacation. Cannot wait to share the full details on Jenn and I's blogging love affair that brought us together and opened this amazing door for me. Who would have thought blogging would have brought my best friends into my life....and now we are coworkers!?
So with that said it's time to jump back into blogging....more to come on motherhood, marriage, and the madness of life. xoxo