Ahhh it is nice that the election is over and there is no more hate ads everywhere I look but I just have a horrid knot in my stomach still. Obviously the outcome was not for Romney and Ryan, which is fine. The people have spoken and chosen who they want. I get it.
What's done is done. BUT....(you knew there had to be a but or else I would not be posting)
I am just stuck. Stuck on what to think. Stuck on what to do.
I have literally had this on my mind for weeks! I guess I just do not get it, and maybe it is just one of those things I will never understand. I am obviously a women, clearly but ever since I became a mom women's rights have been even more important to me. Having babies and also miscarrying have proven to me when life begins and how fragile it is. I am so blessed to have my boys, and they all started from day one in my womb. I still remember the day before I miscarried sitting in the ER clinging to hope that my 6 week old fetus who they had just spotted the heartbeat on ultrasound would survive. That he or she would be here in 34 more weeks playing with the boys. That did not happen and everyone around me felt horrid. All my friends rallied and gave me their support which I am forever grateful for. Because to me and them I had lost a child, a sweet soul that would have been another amazing addition to our family puzzle. But what about children that are thrown away? Not even given a shot? I just do not get it. Everyone felt bad about my 6 week old, so what about all the children who are aborted up to 23 weeks?? Is it ANY different? My heart just hurts over this concept. I guess I cannot wrap my head around how people were devastated for me but not equally as devastated for all the babies that are lost daily?
I am just scared. Scared for our future. Scared for my children's future.
Another thing I am stuck on is also the concept of people working hard for a living. This drives me up a wall. My husband works his butt off and has an amazing job. He killed himself working and finishing his MBA so he could provide for his family, but what is his reward??? Paying more taxes?? I mean seriously, this boggles my mind? Should I be telling my kids to aim for high paying careers like doctors or lawyers just so they can get the crap kicked out of them when it comes to taxes? Sorry Vincent that you chose to be a doctor and educated yourself, you are now being punished by paying more taxes? How is that even remotely fair?? We have people working the system left and right and it makes me sick. I know there are people out there who need it, trust me I have been in those shoes. My mother was in an accident when I was in high school, unable to work, and we got food stamps. Food stamps rocked, we could spend the max amount and get the name brand stuff, who cared, it wasn't our money! While others couponed and tried to budget we didn't have to! Sick, right? Yah, it really is! And it is done ALL THE TIME. I am sick that it did not understand how corrupt this was when I was 16 years old. I just did not understand that in the end we were screwing someone over. Someone who worked hard for their money. How do you even explain this to your children?? It just makes zero sense.
I am just stuck trying to take it all in. Figure out what to do from here. What to think and how to react. I seriously do not care who you voted for, this is not a debate at all. My family and I are divided as far as voting goes and I still love them but at the end of the day even though they love Obama, there are still questions that I will never know or understand. I hope you can respect that this is my blog and my thoughts. Does anyone share my feelings or am I a loaner!? haha Am I just over thinking this all!?!?! Man I just wish I had all the answers but I don't.
At the end of the day I just want to teach my children what is right and wrong, but man it is hard when half the country does not believe what I hold to be true! The best thing I can do is hold my values and instill them in my boys, they are my life, my future and my hope. That is all.