Where do we go from here...

I have written and deleted this post over and over this weekend. I have thought on exactly what it is that I want to say. Obviously this is horrific and so depressing. 20 innocent children and 6 adults are now not with us. All because of one person's choices. It is sick. Very, very sick.

But I cannot help but think about HOW we got here. How did the world turn to these events, I feel almost numb because it KEEPS happening. I mean in the past 6 months, it has happened in every location that we once felt secure. A movie theater, a shopping mall and now a school.

What are we doing wrong as a country?

I have my theories. One being that we have fully kicked God to the curb. We tip toe around the subject of him and have to make sure NOT to mention him in schools or in public. I refuse to let that be in our family which is obviously why we chose awhile back to homeschool, to let our children be  fully enriched by God's teachings, to be taught and brought up all day with those teachings, not just reserved for Sunday or after school. To practice those teachings throughout the years and have a deep understanding of human life and how precious it is.

I mean there are 26 lives that are NOT here today, it is insanely sad. These lives were taken on a whim, they did not matter to the killer. These 26 families are in so much pain, it makes me cry just thinking about it. I just feel like human life nowadays is not as sacred as it once was. That everyone is only looking out for themselves. Trying to do what they want and not caring about those around them. Obviously not everyone is that way but just seems like countless people are. These men (the killers) are mentally ill. It was overlooked. But why? Why? Where were their friends and family? How were these warning signs not seen or anything done? Obviously hindsight is 20/20, but I just feel like that same "only looking out for me" mentality plays into that. People are so focused on themselves that they do not stop to ask how someone is doing or to offer a smile or kind gesture. I believe in my soul kindness can go a long way. I talked about this before when the Colorado shooting happened. What if these killers would have had a friend, a kind soul who asked how they were and loved them? I just always wonder what if? If we see someone in need of help, we can't just stand back and hope that they are okay. We need to be an active part in helping.

There are so many problems in the world. I just wish we could all love each other and care more. These 26 lives are beautiful, the stories I keep reading about each and everyone is amazing. That they were indeed trying to make a difference in this world, and now their lives are gone. What do we do from here? We carry on in their footsteps, we spread the love that they had. We stand up for what is right, we love with all our hearts and we stop to care for others. Not just to wonder "are they okay" but to actually reach out to those people. To talk to strangers, to smile at others and to take a stand and turn this world around. We need love, we need God and we need this to stop.

That is just my take. xoxo


  1. Such a great post. I truly hope we'll all reach out and be more kind to others. If it stops just one horrific act, it's worth it. It's how God wants us to treat one another.

  2. That's a beautiful post. Your heart is always a shining example of pure love & Christianity.

    I've heard a lot of people say we need better mental healthcare in this country. Problem doesn't start there. The country's qualified mental health professionals can't help people who don't want help. Whose family & friends don't offer them help. It doesn't start with our mental health professionals, it starts with those closest to us.
    We had a woman killed by officers because she pointed a gun at them in the middle of an apartmentcomplex. The comments on the news story were actually from her family. "She was mentally ill & not taking her meds" over & over. One person even admitted to visiting the woman & noticing she was having an "episode" just 2 days prior. They also said she only had an airsoft pellet gun...cops don't wait to find out if it's a "real" gun, they simply can't. I just don't understand why, if this woman's family knew she was ill, they didn't help her. Government can't take care of everything

    All that to say, I agree. Kindness goes a long way.

  3. Great post, Allie. I have cried everytime I have read about it and thought about it. The teachers at Hailie and Samanthas' school are sad about it, I talked to the girls about it, and told them what happened, and to run like they were on fire if their teacher told them to run. It is frightening to think that we are not safe any longer. I agree, people need to step up and help out those that need help, don't be afraid to become involved. That is the problem now, no one wants to become involved with anyone or anything, just turn a blind eye and hope that someone else takes care of the problem.

  4. Every day 16,000 children die of hunger.


    1. That I know. Which is why teaching about God is even more important, teaching our children to give to others is key. God is key to it all.

  5. Well written post! I've been trying to figure out what to write about this as well...

    I tend to think that things like this happen because human life is so undervalued. I mean... where is the horror that babies are killed through abortion every day? I hate to say it, but as horrible as CT was, I can't say I was that surprised. I just wonder where it will be next. Maybe that's cynical (I'm not), but we live in a culture that ignores one evil yet recognizes another.

    People are hurting and like you said, maybe a friend who loved would have made a difference.


  6. Amen!! I am just speechless. This whole thing is completely devastating

  7. Hi Allie! Long time reader but this is my first time commenting. I know you've mentioned several times that you will be homeschooling and you mention public schools but never mention the option of Catholic schools. I was wondering if you and Jordan had considered that for your kiddos? I'm just curious bc it seems like I know more and more people homeschooling instead of sending their kids to school....both public and Catholic schools.