I have some what been in a rut, not a bad rut just lots of thoughts going through my mind.
We have a lot of changes going on here which I will get to in other posts but just lots of thoughts on life and our future and our children's future.
All good things though, I promise!:)
Sometimes it is easy to get lost in the shuffle of all that is involved with being a wife and mother.
You get lost within your friends and family.
You just shuffled around and emotions get thrown around.
At some points it is just so hard to keep up with everything and everyone.
Being a mother is such a hard job.
Obviously it is rewarding but man it is rough.
You are molding the future, you have lives in your hands.
It is downright terrifying if you start to get ahead of yourself and think about the future.
Which is why I most of the times just choose to stay in the moment and not get too far ahead of myself about what is to come when the boys are teens and then God forbid, adults.
You look around at everyone else, other families, other children, other moms.
I used to have a hard time with comparing myself with others, when I only had Vincent I used to get intimidated by other moms who I thought were super moms.
With a few years under my belt in being a mom and wife my view has changed significantly.
No one can do it all.
If someone says they can, I honestly call their bluff.
I can do a decent amount most days but to say I fully have this mom thing under control would be BS.
If I am a rocking mom one day I can tell you that the house is probably a train wreck,
If my house is clean, I usually go to bed wondering if I spent enough quality time with the boys.
Thank God I have the world's most amazing husband who understands that I can not do it all perfect, all the time, he is just happy I am a trophy wife (with lots of sarcasm)
Each day brings new challenges, new experiences, some exciting, some terrifying.
I thought as the kids got older things would be easier, and yes in some aspects it is easier.
They can go to the bathroom on their own but they are now forming their own being.
Their attitude towards life and others is now forming.
They have opinions, they have more feelings than ever. They can relay their thoughts to you.
Throw any newborn my way, I can rock it out but man this toddler, almost school age stuff is tiring.
Not so much physically but emotionally.
I ask myself daily "Will this effect who they become?" ," Am I making the right choices?"
At the end of the day I just have to trust my gut as a mom and do the best that I can.
I just have to pray that everything will fall into place.
Sometimes, it just takes a few good quotes to put things into perspective.
I just have to be me, be the best mom and wife that I can and live the life at hand.
We are so extremely blessed and have our own special unique story that only God could have planned.
I need to stand tall and confident in the fact that I cannot do it all.
That at the end of the day, all that matters is that my family and I are happy.
They are hands down the most important thing and really all that matters when all is said and done.
Cannot wait to fill you in on all the changes and happenings in the household and our life.
Happy Thursday friends.